Maybe everything would have fallen into place eventually, and I would have been able to clear my head and get back on track. Maybe not. It is the maybe not that worries me. Had I not had what I call a spiritual awakening, and asked for help in dealing with my addictions I may have never known the peace of mind that comes with living a sober life. True peace can be obtained, not temporary solace provided by chemicals introduced to our system. Once we achieve that inner peace the healing begins.
Every moment of sobriety is a gift, and as we move relentlessly forward, those gifts just keep getting better.